WHY NOT "SELF LOVE"

Our time is limited. Nobody knows when or where or how or why or what will be the cause of our death. I've realized that I spend all my time being idle, so when my best-friend's friend's sister passed away in such a young age, it made me halt on whatever I'm doing to think and reflect for a second.

I've wasted my time complaining on very small things that doesn't really matter at all.
I've wasted my time sleeping for long hours.
I've wasted my time hating other people, I have no connection with.
I've wasted my time in social media than chatting with my family face to face.
I've wasted my time literally doing nothing.
I've wasted my time waiting for my true love and not doing the first move.
I've wasted my time being angry to myself and to others mistakes.
I've wasted my time and I can't redo this things anymore.

Death is inevitable but before I say goodbye to this beautiful world, I want to ask myself if I'm happy to the things I've done.

What are the things I've done?

What are the things I've done that made me happy?

Most of this are not captured by camera, and most of this are not express thru words, these are the moments, those rare moments that we often disregard.

So, hello again. The first time I've wrote this the title was "LIVE AS IF YOU'RE GOING TO DIE TOMORROW", so I am currently editing this then I've realize why not "Self Love".  There are things that we don't appreciate because we lack something.

This is being grammatically incorrect.But you know what, who cares this is how limited my ability is, is, I can't force myself to be perfect that will lose my interest in writing, not to be able to express myself thru writing. I know someday I will backread this the I'll laugh because I will start correcting myself. And if ever I am reading this again, I just wanna say how proud I am to you Erika. Thank you for being brave so that you can reach whatever destination God has prepared you. I love you so much that I always want whats best for you and I am sorry for the times I can't comfort you because I don't know what to say. You are the best and you will become the best damn doctor the world has ever seen. You will become a mother and wife. And all of your dreams will come true. Just keep the faith burning and always remember that I am so proud of you. Godbless you more and be happy you deserve it.

Those words.