MEDICAL JOURNEY 2.0

I never actually thought i will be back writing my life here again. I thought, I handled it well. I thought, I have matured and this "Phase" is over the book anymore, but here we are. 

 

Chapter 1: She survived!

 

    It’s already the season of neurons striking again. Ready to face the world with head held high, hands quivering,  not knowing what another dimension to face. I entered medical school in hopes that I will be the One that I've been dreaming of. Thinking it'll be beneficial to everybody that surrounds me. I am grateful that I have the means to pay for my tuition fee, my parents did it. Even if its hard for them to provide for the 5 of us, they still manage to pay my fee, and my other miscellaneous. And for that I am so grateful. 

    It was hard, I remembered crying in front of my mother telling her that it was so hard, that medical school is beyond unimaginable that everything really has the depths and sometimes I drown on it. She told me, "If it's hard, then QUIT! Stop it!", instead of babying me or consoling me this is what she told me, I know in her heart that she means well that's why I told myself that I WILL NEVER QUIT! whatever happens because this is my destiny. And I am so glad that you didn't Erika. I am so proud of you.

    Whenever I am so down and unmotivated, God has always plan on reminding me why I started on the first place, He would constantly show me that He is the above all. One of those is my favorite verse in the Bible, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." JEREMIAH 29:11. Every bit of this verse word signifies something, and for that I became resilient in every battle I face. Although it wasn't always pots and gold, but for that it hone me to be a good person.

    Friends and fellow colleagues are the best. There is no man in an island, you need to survived. God made sure that I survived with good people and that's why I pray for their success and happiness in life, we may have different venture, I hope and pray that we can meet each other and be flourish on our chosen life. We are indeed a group of doctors that I will never trade on whatever life gets me. Thank you to my Medbestfriends. 

    Mid-year, pandemic hit us, we were forced to do online class and limited face to face. Life becomes a little bit hard, but I have no idea how much may affect this to other people. Again, I am grateful for this season because my family and I were well and we have good shelter and food on our plate. Thank you Lord for being our protector and healer. When I was a kid I always wonder how it feels like to be homeschooled, jokes on me I've experienced it,and it was no joke, although I have focus some stuff on myself, I've become interested on editing some videos, (here some link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bx18u6uZkPw). 

    I've also meet someone, since I am NBSB this is all surreal for me, but with the blessing of God and our parents, We are getting married this April 30, 2024, we got engaged last April 30, 2023. God is good.

Chapter 2: She meets her purpose!

    Clerkship was fast approaching and because we are still under the pandemic restriction due to COVID 19, even our wardworks were minimize to avoid exposure. I am grateful for the opportunity but then I was also shocked with the condition that my fellow Filipino was facing. I know it was tiring on my part but to these patients it's beyond imaginable. We were so blessed that when I first encounter my patient I am embraced by "WHYS". I know that the healthcare system in our country is so shit. 

Chapter 3: He reminds her!

    

    

PROLOGUE

    The broad idea for this profession is something that you can boast of. Having your Heads held high while walking on the corridor, just the simple word of it amazes people. Those were the things I anticipated and mind you, it does work. BUT it was so hard to go by every single day without reading those thick books, listening to the professors during lectures and laboratory and having an outlined form at the end of the day. It was hard and stressful. There are stuff that I do in order to survive the day. Is this really what I want? Am I willing to endure this for the rest of my life? These were the questions I forgot to ask to myself before entering the MedSchool.

    The first day of school is like any other typical freshmen first day, seeking for your company and later on will lead to friendship, it’s a good thing I’m with my friend during this process I did survive the day. We were actually not expecting meeting 7 doctors in just one meeting, here and there introducing themselves and their subject matter plus giving us some tips to survive this process.

    This adjustment period is shit, my sleeping pattern is so mess that I feel so sleepy all the time, I have some novels to finish, games to win and movies to watch but still I only have little time for studies.

    I reach my rock bottom when I failed my first exam and the other and the other. I was so devastated but I can’t blame anyone because this is my doing, I prayed to God for wisdom and understanding but took only few minutes to read and reread. How can dreams be possible with that kind of effort and so, I accept this reality.

    I accept my failures and I accept the outcome but I have to do something, I need to do something because this is what I want, this is what I look forward for the rest of my life. My passion in healing will come to reality and I just need myself to cooperate. Cause dreams will be just dreams without an effort. I have invested my time, effort and money here, there is no more turning back because God has directed this path to me.

So my advice is if you are going to enter any field, ask yourself this, “Am I really sure?”

IF I CAN DO IT! YOU CAN! With GOD'S GRACE...